Last night I felt pretty terrible. I got drunk and started remember a stupid dream that Ive been having, which depresses the shit out of me. I don't remember my dreams cause I don't get enough sleep, when I do sleep is usually when Ive taken part in drugs and or alcohol. Mainly alcohol. Either way, the dreams aren't that great, usually scary and involving death in some way, me not being able to run..and a hippo...which tries to viciously kill me every time it sees me and my only escape is into water, which is just fucking weird and scary. Aside from that, I have a new dream thats already reoccurred three times. Its me looking at myself in the future, the far future, and im staring at my eyes, and then I slowly back away to see myself, old and depressed looking...balding and nasty looking, I back out even more to see the apartment that I'm sitting in has absolutely nothing in it, except a chair and myself..Then I go through a flashback type thing and see all the depressing things that have happened to my future self and wake up.

It's pretty much scaring the shit out of me.

I need to start my life.

Europe anyone?